THE MIRROR – THE WAY – MERE
There is but one remedy: that signpost must always be there,
a mirror well placed in one’s feelings, impulses,
all one’s sensations.
One sees them in this mirror. There are some which are not very beautiful or pleasant to look at; there are others which are beautiful, pleasant, and must be kept. This one does a hundred times a day if necessary. And it is very interesting.
One draws a kind of big circle around the psychic mirror and arranges all the elements around it. If there is something that is not all right, it casts a sort of grey shadow upon the mirror:
this element must be shifted, organized. It must be spoken to,
made to understand, one must come out of that darkness.
If you do that, you never get bored.
This mirror is very, very well made. Do that for two years, three, four years, at times one must do it for twenty years.
Then at the end of a few years, look back, turn your gaze upon what you were three years ago:
“How I have changed!… Was I like that?” It is very entertaining.
I could speak like that?
I could talk like that, think like that?… But I was indeed stupid! How I have changed!”
It’s very interesting, isn’t it?
Why not project yourself upon a screen, as in the cinema, and then
look at yourself moving on it? How interesting it is!
This is the ﬁrst step.
Note: the “screen” Mere is talking about is the psychic consciousness.
You project yourself on the screen and then observe and see all that is moving there and how it moves and what happens.
You make a little diagram, it becomes so interesting then. And then, after a while, when you are quite accustomed to seeing, you can go one step further and take a decision.
Or even a still greater step: you organize – arrange, take up all that, put each thing in its place, organize in such a way that you begin to have a straight movement with an inner meaning. And then you become conscious of your direction and are able to say:
“Very well, it will be thus; my life will develop in that way, because
that is the logic of my being.”
And the ﬁrst step is to know all that is happening and then you must not try to shut your eyes when something does not appear pleasant to you! You must keep them wide open and put each thing in that way before the screen. Then you make quite an interesting discovery. And then the next step is to start telling yourself:
Since all that is happening within me, why should I not put this thing in this way and then that thing in that way and then this other in this way
and thus wouldn’t I be doing something logical
that has a meaning?
Why should I not remove that thing which stands obstructing the way, these conﬂicting wills? Why?
And what does that represent in the being? Why is it there?
If it were put there, would it not help instead of harming me?”
And when things come from outside to try and upset all that, you are able to say: “No, I accept this, for it helps; I reject that, for that harms.” And then, after a few years,
you curb yourself as you curb a horse: you do whatever you like,
in the way you like and you go wherever you like.